Saturday, June 25, 2016

Writing to Write

It has been way too long since I've posted or written anything to be honest.  I started doing some creative writing back in March but I have hit a block there.  So, I've decided to start writing everyday.  A little along the lines of Artist Pages if any of you are familiar with that.  So right now the goal is just to write something everyday.  Honestly some days that might be the to do list or a grocery list but I really need the create outlet again.

The easiest place to start  is probably a recap since I last posted which was in November of 2014.  I started many posts but never really completed them so they are sitting in a folder of drafts.  Today however is a new day and a new post.

Since November of 2014 Baby Chang passed Kindergarten and First Grade with all As.  She has taken piano lessons, hip hop dance, gymnastics, went to a rowing and horse back riding camps and grown about two feet.  She is now tall enough to ride most of the rides at Six Flags.

Prairie Dad has continued performing in Houston meaning he is here more than anywhere else.  He has gotten amazing reviews!  Sadly he has had to say good bye to his Mom and a beloved Aunt.  Which has allowed us all to spend more time with his dad.  He has also become a landlord, renting out his Aunt's house which he inherited.

I am continuing stage managing but starting to realize that it may no longer be conducive to being a mom to a seven year old...  Needless to say I've been spending a lot of time soul searching and trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.  Top on my list is to just win the lottery.

Since this blog started as a place to discuss my cancer status it is only appropriate I bring you up to date.  Six months ago I had a PET scan that was not clean.  There were lymph nodes that measured larger than in the past.  A week ago today another scan was taken and I'm happy to say it was completely clean!  The spots of concern were completely gone.  Most likely my body was just doing it's job and fighting an infection.  So though I'm once again in the clear there will be more scans in my future.  I have to say though of all the tests I go through I don't mind the PET.  I think of it as my time away.  Seriously once they inject you there is nothing you can do for one hour but listen to music or a book.  I don't know about you but that one hour is magical no texting, no talking on the phone, no reading (i.e. no email or Facebook) pure heaven.  Plus they cover you up in a warm blanket so usually it means a really amazing nap.

The summer is going by a little too quickly for my taste but we are enjoying some downtime.  For the first time in a very long time all three of us are home and enjoying being together with very few commitments.  So here is to summer vacation even when it feels like 106!

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Baby it's cold outside!

About a year ago we started applying for kindergarten for Baby Chang.  I say that like we were trying to get into some fancy private school.  No just trying to pick the best public school option.  In Houston there are magnet schools within the public school system that you can apply to go to even if it is not your neighborhood school.  After much debate and fingernail biting we decided on the school that was in fact our neighborhood school.  Top on my list of reasons was that we could walk to school.  This has quickly become the best part of my day.  Baby Chang and I spend the 15 minute walk talking, singing, making up games.  It is quality time for just the two of us.  Some days it's the only time we have together because of my work schedule.

Today however it was 37 degrees outside when we woke up.  I decided that perhaps it would be a good day to drive, yes I have become a wuss when it comes to the cold.  As we drove to school it hit me that because of how school drop-off works we wouldn't get our usual hug and kiss goodbye.  When I mentioned that to Baby Change she decided that walking to school was way better than driving, even when it's cold.  So even though the trip to school was considerably shorter today I already know it was the best part of my day!

Wednesday, October 29, 2014


The PET Scan was clear!!!!!!  Sadly I was counting chickens before they hatched yesterday and discovered I still have one more PET in a year.  Rather than dwelling on that though I'm choosing to do a happy dance about the PET results.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

It's That Time of Year!

It is that time of year again where the doctor appointments begin to pile up as I get ready for all my annual check-ups.  Though this year is a little more that just follow-ups.  Last week I had what will hopefully be a final PET Scan and tomorrow I find out the results.  Though both my Oncologist and my Radiation Oncologist have said I am theoretically cured tomorrow is the five year scan.  With Nasopharyngeal Carcinoma three years is the bench mark for a cure rather than five with most cancers; or so I've been told.  Tomorrow will be the official "You're Cured!"  As of tomorrow I will (fingers crossed) be a official survivor! 

I will follow-up with you all tomorrow...

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

National Cancer Survivor's Day!

So I'm a couple days late with this but HAPPY NATIONAL CANCER SURVIVOR'S DAY!

Today I celebrated by working out, taking Baby Chang to the pool and eating a bowl of chocolate ice cream.  Today was a day like most other summer days in our house.  Which in my opinion is the best way to celebrate being a survivor.

Though I'm not cured officially I am close.  Yet, cancer is a part of my daily life.  It is why I am trying to workout more and eat healthier everyday.  It is why I blow my nose more than the average person.  It is why when Baby Chang sees me changing clothes she points out my second belly button.  It is why whenever I hear of someone being diagnosed a part of my heart breaks for them.

So on National Cancer Survivor's Day I will be grateful for all of those things.  I will be grateful that I got to celebrate Baby Chang's 5th Birthday and plan to see many more.  I will be grateful that I was here to see Prairie Dad make his debut at two Houston theaters.  I will be grateful that in two weeks I will be vacationing with my family in North Carolina.  I will be grateful that I don't know where I want to be in five years but I actually get to figure it out.

So to all of the SURVIVORS be grateful and celebrate the best way you know how!  Perhaps I will have a second bowl of ice cream...

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Walking is Optional Right?

So in my quest to maintain a regular workout schedule through the season I made a deal with Prairie Dad.  The deal was that on Wednesday nights I would come home late so I could make it to a class at the gym.  This of course is only on days when I don't have rehearsal and if Wednesday isn't the only night for the three of us to have dinner together.  Basically that means this week and next week...

The rest of the deal is that I get to take the same class on Saturday morning because I will be done in plenty of time to get Baby Chang to gymnastics (that is of course if I don't have rehearsal).  Why does work take up so much of my life?  Oh right I like to eat and not live in a cardboard box and I still haven't won the lottery.

The class I have made the deal for is HIIT high intensity interval training.  Otherwise known as good luck walking tomorrow or I'm going to punch you in the face if you say burpee one more time.  For about two days after each class I am sore.  You know that good workout sore the one where walking is painful.  Yes I said good and no I wasn't being sarcastic.

I have discovered over the summer a couple things about me and a workout.  One is that a goal isn't really enough to motivate me to workout, if it was I'd be a size 2 and have run multiple marathons by now.  The second is that I need someone to push me or I wimp out really quickly.  A personal trainer would be perfect but sadly I haven't won the lottery yet (I think I may have mentioned that before).  Third I need to see results pretty quickly to stay motivated.

This class perfectly fulfills two and three.  There is a kick-ass instructor who is encouraging but pushes you to your brink.  I quickly saw results and saw them melt away when I wasn't working out for a bit.  It also helps that a friend often takes the class with me.  Therefore I don't have to talk myself into one hundred push-ups and burpees, which is good because it's way easier to talk myself into a margarita.

So tomorrow morning if you hear a loud scream, don't worry I'm just trying to get out of bed I'll be fine by Friday!

Friday, August 30, 2013

New Year Resolutions

Ok so it isn't January 1st but it is the start of the school year.  My entire life I've lived by the academic schedule.  Both of my parents were teachers (otherwise known as saints) so when I was little their work schedule was the same as our school schedule.  As an adult I have always worked for a Performing Arts Organization whose schedule also followed the time frame of an academic schedule.  The season typically runs September to May with the summer months off or at least different employment for June, July and August.  So September always feels more like a new year and time for fresh starts.

Thus this time of year always leads to a few personal and sometimes professional resolutions.  Many of which I fail to complete just like the average New Year's Resolution.  Research has shown that telling people about your resolutions will help you keep them so I'm sharing them all with you (in no particular order).

1.  Workout during the season:  Usually once work ramps up my workouts become non-existent.  Well now that Baby Chang has to be at school at 7:45 a.m. (yep Baby Chang is in Pre-School don't' ask me how that's possible I DON'T KNOW) it means I can be to the gym by 8:00 and to work by 9:15.  This summer I have been averaging 4 workouts a week right now my goal is to just maintain that...

2.  Cut back the amount of Diet Soda I drink:  I don't drink coffee and I'm not a huge fan of tea so soda is my go to caffeine source.  I'm not ready to completely cut out caffeine but I wouldn't mind giving up the chemicals in diet soda.  Over the last couple months I have cut back but not nearly as much as I'd like.

3.  Find Me Time:  As a working Mom I often have guilt about taking me time when I have so few hours with Baby Chang.  However, I know I'm a better parent and a better partner when I make time for myself.

4.  Create a Realistic Budget:  Having and following a budget are things I've attempted multiple times but I don't think it's ever been realistic.  So I'm working to find a balance.

6.  Nurture Friendships:  Like my workouts, friendships get a little left behind during the season.  I have been lucky to make new friends this summer which I don't want to see fade because of my work schedule.  It makes it easier that they all have daughters Baby Chang's age, that allows me to combine time with Baby Chang and time with my friends.

7.  Blog More:  Enough said!

This should be enough until the New Year at least.  How about you does your New Year begin with the start of Fall?  Have you ever had any success with resolutions?